Everyone should be able to relate to the idea of working hard at something and getting close to your goal, but having many more near-misses than bulls eyes. Sound familiar?
Like when I run, it would be ideal to feel great for the entire duration of the run, light as a feather, without breathlessness, a tight muscle, or a cramp. Right? In reality, I'd say that only about 15% of my runs feel like this...
I do a lot of this type of work, as I'm sure a lot of you do. You know, projects that require tedious practice and maintenance. Like running, or yoga, or cooking, or playing a musical instrument. I have consistent opportunities to improve my performance success and satisfaction. While there is usually something about the performance that I feel 100% positive about, the performances where everything lined up and I felt great are few and far between. Call me a perfectionist(?)
I am a firm believer that you have to have faith in the process. If you put in enough of the right type of work, you will achieve your goal.
I am happy to say that last night, I finally had one of my ideal performances. No, I didn't play all of the right notes, but I was mentally and emotionally in the place that I have been aspiring towards for years. I didn't need anybody's approval. In fact, if somebody that I trust had told me the performance was poor, I wouldn't even care. I felt great. I didn't care who was in the audience. I got to express music on the spot without any distractions. Everything was happening in real time. I felt ready to walk on the stage every time, and I celebrated when I got off stage.
These are all things that I have been practicing, but rarely to they all line up at once. I hope this is the beginning of the next chapter for me. It's liberating, really.
I am thankful to Jeff for giving me the tools to get here.
If you put in enough of the right type of work, you will achieve your dream.